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Monday, August 15, 2005

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 07:02:41 GMT

moved.. sorta.

since i almost never update my xanga, i figured ill post a link to my friendster blog.
http://acousticblabble.blogs.friendster.com/unstrung/
there. i dunno if it requires you to be signed onto it or if you need to be my friend(ster).. but if it doesnt work.. then, oh well. i pretty much update it as often as this anway..

peace out.

Friday, July 01, 2005

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 04:33:00 GMT

hmmm.

So its hard when you’re bored, and you don’t really know what to say. I guess part of it is due to the fact that I don’t really know what I'm thinking as of the moment. It’s kinda like taking a shot in a dark where you can only hope that somewhere in between the semi-pleasurable feeling of self-expression, and the soothing clicking of my laptop keypads, some amount of “sense” would come out. But I don’t know,,, most of my entries already compose of random ramblings.. so, what the heck...

Things have been changing quite rapidly. First, there’s the fact that im graduating this year, and this big piece of reality is starting to sink further and further down my throat. I guess for the first time I’m scared to know that from that from this moment on, I’ll be taking things on my own. (not that I haven’t done so already.. but you know.. parts of it still give me the shivers) Then I’ve also had to deal with a handful amount of goodbyes lately. It’s definitely not easy, and sometimes letting go of people you’ve spent quite a considerable amount of time with really takes a huge chunk from you - especially when some of them already left quite an impression. (yes, I know.. but we all move on.) Then there’s always going be the unmentionables which are the things that you can’t really openly say in public due to either a) private and personal reasons or b) one or two of the readers might be affected by it.

So yea, I dont know. It jus bugs me sometimes, and with my busy schedule and occasional disregard for self-reflection and expression, I haven't really taken the time to randomly blabble the things that are on my head as of late. So alas, here I am doing my inner monologue.. hahaha. hmm. (maybe ill leave this in as private post). hmm. ahh, whatever..

but it feels kinda good to actually "blog" again. so there.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 09:14:26 GMT

intro/stanza/chorus : G-F#/D-Em-C9 (capo on 4th fret)

the dawn is breaking
a light shining through
you're barely waking
and im tangled up in you

im open you're closed
where ill follow, youll go
i worry i wont see your face
light up again

even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to ryhme
out of the doubt that fills my mind
i somehow find you and i collide

im quiet you know
you make a first impression
ive found im scared to know
im always on your mind

even the best fall down sometimes
even the stars refuse to shine
out of the back you fall in time
i somehow find you and i collide

(Em-D-C9)

dont stop here
ive lost my place
im close behind

damn song has been stuck in my head...

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 03:42:09 GMT

im pregnant.

april fools! =) har har har.

Friday, March 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 07:05:12 GMT

i dont know...
i can't help it. somehow i just can't stop thinking about you.
i know too much of this just isn't normal, but once again
i've found myself reminiscing every hour, every word,
every note, and every picture.
lately you've got my mind spinning, and i can only hope that all
this tension and anxiety would eventually be resolved.
i need your answer, or better yet, i need to know what's gonna happen..
its killing me. it hurts. my mind hurts.
but then again, i guess in time... in about four or five days.. i know for sure..

ill be over you..

- an ode to finals week

heh. yes, ive gone crazy. i've got five of em comin' up. wish me luck. =)

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 08:46:01 GMT

ok, so where do i start?

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 06:54:21 GMT

friggin' pistons.

congrats to all detroit fans and laker haters. its about time the east won the finals. yeah? lakers still rule.

randomness

So ive been so preoccupied lately. had a tiring weeekend (Dave and Busters, Great America. schoolwork, errands, etc. etc.), and just yesterday i was at South SF checking out one of my upper division transfer options - S.F. state U. man, i love the location of that school. 5 mins away from the beach, 10 mins away from the city, and there's a major mall within walking distance! amazing. the campus seemed alright too. (it looked pleasant and friendly enough i guess) however,, I still might turn it down and choose U.C. Davis instead..., simply coz of academic standards and rent/housing prices. (although, Nyan told me i can get a single bedroom in Daly City for about 400 or so..) i still think academia matters most.

just today after class, we hit up Great America again with my homie. (this is one of the advantages of living 10 mins away from Santa Clara..) we braved the ridiculously hot weather.. in hopes of getting in the theme park with "less crowd/people". heh. ill post the ride logs in chart form, including the ones we did last Sat. , soon enough. (takes a lot of time and html encoding.. and now that i don't have xanga premium, im finding it harder and harder to "stylishly" blog.)

then, tommorow im off to see Dave Chappelle (Comedy Central dude..) at the san jose state university event center with Asher and James. I’ve only seen a couple of his shows, but what the hey, I guess I could use some raunchy satirical humor every now and then... its also my first time wathcing stand-up comedy live. should be interesting.

Edit// 06.16

The show was okay. (an hour and a half, including opening act) It was funny, but not hysterically funny. he was way better on t.v. (or maybe coz there was this one dude from the audience who just won’t shut up,.. causing him to loose “momentum” and stuff). but overall,, he threw in some witty jokes (mostly controversial) and couple of original punchlines - one especially directed to the annoying fool i mentioned above. good laughs along the way, good seats (not obstructed at all, and pretty close to front row), so yeah. overall, good show.

Saturday, June 12, 2004

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 06:00:23 GMT

???

I had the weirdest dream yesterday. I was at some high hill (near the bay) hiking with a couple of peeps (I can barely remember their faces so I wouldn’t really know if I knew them or not) So I was taking pictures of what seemed to be nothing but nature.. then all of the sudden I spot this huge amount of water flowing through the bayside. (through the camera lens) I said something, commenting about how a beautiful sight it was (coz I thought it was simply a part of the sea), then from out of the blue, somebody yelled out that it was in fact some sort of tidal wave of some sort hitting the shore. From that moment, I think we all ran, and everything got blurry (i actually forgot what happened after this..)

The next thing I remember, we were driving down the highway heading towards a high cave of somesort. It was heavily raining, and the sky was totally overcast. Through the way there were street vendors approaching the window selling some odd looking fish. Kinda like all deformed or somethin. probably mutated. (it’s really hard picturing it) The whole feel during the whole sequence was just scary, and it seemed all ‘post-apocalyptic’. And while we were on our way to this so called “destination”.. all I can ever think was about everyone I know and if they were all in fact, okay (read: alive and well),, amidst what seemed to have been a really “end of the worldish” moment. Really scary stuff. Once we arrived at that supposed cave.. they were a considerable amount of people. None of which I think I knew. Arguing and fighting.. some sort of conflict which I can’t particularly remember..

And that’s where I finally woke up. A bit relieved I must say. Does anybody know how to interpret these dreams/nightmares? t'was really messed up.

rollercoaster ride

so nways, check it: i finally got me one of these!!! Y-YEAH!!! for those uninformed peeps, the red card above gets me unlimited passes (all season long) to Paramount's Great America theme park. sweetness. prepare the barf bags and aspirins,, coz im milking every ounce of marginal utiliy from this thing!! hehehe. (defiinitely off to revisit top gun, invertigo, drop zone, and the likes...)

also, cable TV's been out for over a week now.....(comcast) sucks.. i now blog to kill time..

Monday, June 07, 2004

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 06:53:55 GMT

lagging

no more xanga image server. ross, rob, and mark.. wala na rin yung mga background pics nyo. Sorry guys.

So nways, I finally got to see troy and shrek 2. (I know I know, im falling behind.. but who cares..) originally, we got tickets to see “A Day Without Mexicans” – some publicized independent film which was supposed to be good/interesting/funny/insightful.. but turned out to be not. So eventually, me and Asher ditched it halfway… and , ehem, “accidentally” snuck into the two aforementioned movies. yep... it’s a “multi”-plex theater. duh. people do that all the time right..? …right..? ok, maybe not. But who cares. (two people can’t bankrupt the whole movie industry anyway..)

Shrek 2 was just a total laughtrip. I don’t think I can count the number of parodies that movie had. (the intro itself had something like 3-4 already). Awesome. I particularly shed some tears laughing during that mission impossible scene with the blind mice and pinocchio’s underwear. Hahaha. definitely buying the dvd if it comes out.

As for Troy, imma just spurt out a few random comments: (1) Paris should be called Princess of Troy, as opposed to Prince. (2) Greeks and Trojans should learn to wear pants in battle. And (3) well, contrary to some bad reviews ive heard prior to watching the movie,I actually thought the movie was great. (but then again,.. i never actually read the Illiad in its entirety, so I wouldn't know any descrepancies regarding its adaptation).

so yeah.. ive also noticed that everyone's seems to be putting their xangas on hold already.. damn, i too cant wait for summer vacation. this whole 'quarter system' has its disadvatages. oh wellsh.

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 04:44:47 GMT

3-day holiday update

friday chilled at larry's apartment. (me, him, and Asher) nothin really special. just talk, jokes.. bought some kfc, and played some PS2 games. this one in particular..

its a kewl first-person shooting game. you're basically shooting terrorists and stuff, while infiltrating into some kindaofa missile base. the experience while playing the game is phenomenal. if u have a guncon2 controller (which we had), its kinda like playin shoot-em-up arcade at dave and busters.. without the booze, nice ambience, and the 21 year age limit. larry's lacked the ambience, and the 21 limit...

same fransisco

"malamang sawang-sawa ka na sa frisco, ano?" that's what my cousin was asking me when we were goin up to meet her sister halfway from their place in sacramento. she made a point though and i think from now on, we are the official tourguides for any distant relatives dropping by the bay area. haha. but its all good though. i never get tired goin up there. (figuratively, of course.)

a few crappy pics: (a bit blurry because the image server im using right now restricts image file size. plus, my digicam's jus a mere 1.3 megapixel, so really, dont expect much) click on the numbers btw..

1. me near the beach on hwy 1 (great highway) i look all sunburnt coz of the backlight. hahaha.
2. me and my cousin's daughter near golden gate (again.)
3. me and my other cousin outside bubba gump restaurant. (name taken from the forrest gump movie). note::: the geeky suitcase and large nike swoosh shoes. fits well, no? their shrimp was good.
4. this is the california seals in SF wharf saying "orf" "orf". but seriously.. the seals should be saying somethin like.. "barf" "barf"... or "stinky-smell-fishy-like-odor"... its funny how something living in water can stink so bad... (hah. i wish i could capture that smell on my camera.)
5. these are my cousins halway lombard st. (crookedest street) it looks like they're blocking the road.
6. us driving down san fransisco's steepest street. kinda like a freefall rollercoaster. weee! hahaha. yes, we're dorks. (actually im proly the dork-est for even taking the pic..)

dude, i just realized that blogging without xanga premium tools' a pain. now, i have to know all the hardcore HTML coding in order to retain my old blogging style. argh. (whats that again...? you're gonna buy me premium membership..? thats great.)

anyway, im tired. hope everyone had a nice memorial day weekend. laterz.